So Long 2008..... Hello 2009 and to Change...

So the past few months have been a really weird time in my life! As many of you already know we were going to have another baby and we lost it. At first I was like o.k. I just want to move on and forget about this, but now the pain of seeing other girls at my work I was pregnant with find out what they are having has been a little hard. I have been thinking about what I would have had this time and find myself rubbing my belly as if it is still there. I know that I will have a baby again if it's Gods will, but I really wish that I was already pregnant. Casey said the other night to me, that he knows it's killing me not being pregnant. That is really funny considering I said I would never do it again when I was pregnant with Monkey LOL. Things change and so do people and I really have changed so much. I know the next time I get pregnant I will not take for granted the miracle that is happening and I will treasure each moment of vomit, nausea, and pain that comes with it LOL!!!