My Dad's Last Lecture!

So I finished my book The Last Lecture! I have to say that I loved this book and the entire concept this man had on life. I believe I cried all the way through, just thinking that the entire time this man is writing this book he was dying. I couldn't help but relate my Dad's death with this book. My dad was given just a few months to live and he kept this secret to himself. I have thought so many times how my dad felt when he was told. Was he screaming inside or was he just ready to go! My dad spared all of us the hurt and agony in knowing he was dying. He knew we couldn't handle it and so he kept his death sentence to himself. I was angry when I found out that I was not told! I haven't ever told anyone that, but I was so angry! I could have just spent a little bit more time at home. I could have held his hand a little bit longer. I could have taken off work and spent my time with him. So many thoughts have went through my head that I would have done different. However, that is not what my Dad wanted. He never once had a negative thing to say about what he was going through. Everyday when I talked to him, he could feel I was worrying and not once did he let me know that he was in pain. He was so strong and he was protecting me. He did this all of my life and I love him so much for this. I recently came across a journal entry I wrote after my dad called me one afternoon to tell me he wouldn't be continuing with his treatments. I remember just feeling sick and hurt by what was happening in my life. I just couldn't imagine my life without him. He was always the one I could talk to, he knew the answers to everything.
When the day finally came upon us where all the hope that we had of him coming home faded away, I wanted to die with my dad. I will never forget the sound of my dad taking his last breathe and the pain that over took me at that moment! I find it ironic though, because he was there when I was born holding my hands, and I was there with him holding his hands as he made his way to heaven. He wants me to be happy and he has given me the most precious gift ever. I see my daddy in Brody all the time. When he smiles so big and his little cheeks fill up his face, my dad is giving me that just to help me get through.
I'm so thankful for this book. it has made me appreciate my time and memories with my little Daddy and I love him more and more each day! He truly is one of the greatest people that has been in my life! I'm blessed to have him!